It was a Saturday evening. We were getting ready to go to Temple. I remember my wife was shrieking at me since morning that we have missed temple visit for almost 2 weeks. We shouldn’t miss it today at any chance. We generally go to the temple near by. Not sure why? Maybe because of the graceful architecture, unique ambience and from my elder son’s perspective delicious Prasada offered after the darshan. Also selecting the temple to go also depends on our social status nowadays. Some of the temples , because of their sophisticated appearance indirectly restricts by building a hesitation on the lower middle class as well as the below poverty line people to enter. They strongly believe that GOD inside those kind of temple is strictly for upper class and upper middle class people.
“Shall we leave, it’s already late” my wife urged me. We started from home. On the way my wife asked me to stop in front of a pooja store. She wanted to buy some pooja items to to get a special Darshan in the temple.
After watching the scene, my eight year old son asked me. “Dad, why are we buying these puja items?”.
“Its for special puja which will make the God happy” I replied.
“So the God is not happy now?” he was very quick to get back.
“Not like that, Ah…it is a kind of seeking attention from God.” I know I am trembling inside.
“But why do we need a special darshan? God will not pay attention to us otherwise?” he questioned me back.
Well I started realizing that he is growing and I can’t give dumb reasons or an hypothetical answer to convince him. And this is because it’s me who asked him to think logic and question anything and everything he go through in his life. I am facing the consequences now for what I told him. But I don’t want to let my ego down. I told him “It’s not compulsory. It’s our desire and self satisfaction. God is not expecting anything from us. Since we have money, we can offer this to God to get his blessings. Poor people who don’t have money are not required to do such. It purely depends on our wish.”
“But Dad, in that case are we not trying to prove that we have money and that’s why we are trying to seek attention from God in front of the poor?” He was going deeper and deeper now. I know his age is too less. But the technologies and media in this modern world making these kids too matured at young age.
I wanted to give him a firm answer this time so that he will stop asking further questions. I don’t want to mind even if it is tough for him to understand.
“Understand clearly, This is a system which we are following for ages. This kind of system keeps the money floating between rich and poor. Because of such procedures, we are spending the money what we have. Else, the money won’t go to other people and the economy will not sustain. If you see now, the puja items are sold by a poor shopkeeper who will get some money to run his family. So he will be happy. Our special puja is indirectly helping his survival. Got it?” I told this answer knowing the fact that he is too small to understand this. Also I knew from the bottom of the heart that this explanation is something I gave him just to wind up the conversation and we were certainly not buying puja items to run this economy.
My wife was done with the puja shopping. I was desperately waiting for her to come back to proceed to temple. Actually to escape from my son’s questions.
We rushed to the temple. It was crowded as expected as it was a saturday. we went in a lengthy queue to get inside the temple and we had a good darshan with special puja. I told my son to wish to the God to give him good knowledge, kindness, wealth & health. After the special puja, we entered the queue for delicious prasada. My son was so excited. When we were tasting it sitting aside , my son started again his enquiry (kind of).
“Dad, why did you ask me to wish for knowledge, wealth & health to God?”
“Well, you have to wish to God to get what you need. You might have problems that you can’t solve, you might need support to overcome hurdles. You should always pray to him to be with you as a saviour. Not only that, You have to thank him for what he has given you”. I replied gently.
My son kept quite for some time and then told me “Dad, you know what, Mom helps me in my home work without even asking her, she voluntarily consoles me or grants me when I cry for something, she knows when I am hungry and feeds me at right time. Isn’t she better than God?
Now both me and my wife started staring at each other. He continued “If God is the creator of the universe and people, why can’t he take the responsibility of taking care of us. We humans didn’t ask God to create the universe and us. Why should we thank him for what we didn’t wish for. Why should we ask him or pray to him to give us health, wealth & knowledge. That means, is he not doing his job correctly? Is he forgetting things frequently that we have to remind him through prayers? Or is he an egoistic head weighted person who will give us what he supposed to give us only if we shower him with prayers?
My wife lost her patience this time. She can’t digest his argument anymore. Moreover, it was clearly visible that she couldn’t answer his questions that easily which increased her temper. She yelled at him “Stop it. You don’t understand. You have time to grow. Once you are grown, you will understand it in detail.” And then at me “Now let’s leave. We can’t keep committing sin in this place”. We left the temple.
On that night, I couldn’t sleep properly. I was trying to find answer for my son’s questions more importantly with Logic.
That restless thought through process inside me discovered the reality. What I realized was, it’s our insecurity that keeps us afraid of God, keeps us do the prayers to appease or impress God. Most of us are thinking God only as a supporting system. We don’t have respect towards God, instead we have fear.
Since I am working on an IT firm, I tried to correlate God and his creation to an IT company CEO and his employees. An Engineer who is working on the company, faces any issues, obviously will reach out to his team mates first, then to his team lead and then may be to his Project Lead at a last chance. For sure he will, get his answers within that circle. Because based on their adequate experience in the industry they can always help them. An Engineer never takes the issue to the CEO of the company and neither the CEO will have the time to address such small issues. According to the CEO, it is a junk issue even though the issue might look big from that Engineer perspective. That’s why we have the hierarchical model in the IT company.
If we apply the same theory to our life, when we have problems, we can always approach our friends, our neighbors, Parents or even our Grandparents who might have actually faced such things in their life based on their experience. They can be our better support system. For sure we can get the answer within that circle. But unfortunately we keep ourselves closed, build insecurity and directly want to take the issue to GOD who is our CEO. More than we respect God, all we need is not to disturb God who has given us an employment in this world to run his creation successfully. If we do our duties honestly and efficiently, he will get good revenue and so as we get our promotion.
But I seriously believe in the fact that our Ancestors are way too intellectual than us despite no advanced science during their time. The point they wanted to convey us was somehow, somewhere misinterpreted and passed over. Until we ask questions, get clarified and teach the same, we can’t seed positive thoughts to our next generation kids.
A detailed description of the road with a speed breaker is better than putting an “Accident Prone Zone” sign board.